Things Aren't Quite Like What They Used To Be

♫ Cause this pain i feel it won't go away, and today i'm officially missing you..♫

People come, people go.

Life brings you down, life gets you up.

I rarely talk about love for serious this far cause i just somehow narrowly think that talks about love seems so serious and spoil, and it's all about blue feeling, sadness, heart broken and so on. 

But excuse me this time to talk about it, i wonder what is love actually?

I had a good relationship with a guy that i once made me feel like i could spend everyday with him without feeling bored at all. You know that kind of feeling you feel when you're around someone and you feel like you can be who you are and you can do anything without feeling afraid that he'll leaves you because you do silly things, you look ugly and stupid? I had that. I thought loving is a feeling of being loved unconditionally.

For my own thinking, commitment is not something that we need to make that official. Like, choosing a right date for our anniversary and you will ask will you be mine and i say yes, and we're officially being a couple, that day where we confess our feeling we mark that as our special date. No, i'm not that kind of person. For me, having someone who always be there for me 24 hours/day and having him to love me unconditionally, i love him back in return, for me that's enough. 

But maybe not everyone agree that way.

I had this thing going on nicely until realizing that relationship without commitment is like a dream without goals. It's like walking without direction, just keep going and if it's dead end, then we're dead. As hard as it sounded and so we're indeed dead.

If one person leaves, how could a relationship stays?

Things are never be as easy as a wink when one person left and just like a sudden everythings changing. Life's change, habits that we gotta left behind, everything. 

How come one simple problem could turn to a very dramatical separation? I asked.  

The anwer is yours, either it's mine yet i'm still questioning. Again, commitment that never came out from our mouth? Broken promises, or what? 

One person made me loves and i don't demand, i get hurted but i won't cry. Thought love is fair, it will be nicer in time. True love will find their way. Path. Destiny. God's way. I put my faith with them. 

The power of mind, perhaps?

Some people believed that the power of mind is strongly lives in ourselves and it takes a big part of making such a self thoughts or some stuffs like that. Now i believed that it's proven true, i couldn't tell the story right here but i just wanna tell you that in this case, the power of my mind was being such an afternoon miracle at this place. I declare that i love this place, The Project!

I heart POLA!

My sister went back home and she brought me this polaroid camera which i've been wanted for so long! WOHOO :D i love this new toy and i love my sister!

Sweet song played here..

"Wherever you go.. whatever you do.. I will be right here waiting for you.. Whatever it takes, or how my heart breaks.. I will be right here waiting for you.."

Registration Form

So my friend told me to check my email, so i go check it and turns out we got an email from the Ministry of Youth and Sport. A looooongg email with thousand question, document stuffs and all those. I'M SO THANKED GOD that i still keep the copies of my documents safely in my folder. And this is how i was working on the files, a bit confused yet still excited.

Read the lyric, GIRLS :)

..This is a song for every girl who's ever been through something, she thought she couldn't make it through (yeah, hmm)

I sing these words because I was that girl too, wanting something better than this, but who do I turn to?

Now were moving from the darkness into the light, this is the defining moment of our lives.

'Cause your beautiful like a flower, more valuable than a diamond, you are powerful like a fire, you can hela the world with your mind and there is nothing in the world that you cannot do, when you believe in you (who are beautiful), yeah you (who are brilliant), yeah you (who are powerful), yeah you (who are resilient)

This is a song for every girl who feels that she is not special

'Cause you don't look like a supermodel, coke bottle

The next ime the radio tells you to shake your moneymaker, shake your head and tell them, them them you're a leader
 

Now were moving from the darkness into the light, this is the defining moment of our lives. (yeah)

'Cause your beautiful like a flower, more valuable than a diamond, you are powerful like a fire, you can heal the world with your mind and there is nothing in the world that you cannot do, when you believe in you (who are beautiful), yeah you (who are brilliant), yeah you (who are powerful), yeah you (who are resilient)

Yeah you (who are beautiful)

Yeah you (who are brilliant)

Yeah you (who are powerful)

Yeah you (who are resilient)

Yeah you (this song is for you)

Yeah you (this song is for you)

Yeah you (this song is for you)

Yeah you

Yeah you

You are brilliant..

Untitled.

BW all the way!

Such a very nice flare!

Happy birthday, Meilia..

I'm turning 20, finally. Alhamdulillah for all the blessing God has given me. Great life, great family, great friends, and all the greatness that i've got are more than enough for me. I wish by carrying this 20 age i can be a better person in every way. Well, once more thanks God for given me another chance to breath til now. Hopefully maturity will be on my side from now :) 

Just a fading messy look

Saturday-Oh-Night

I'm just reachin home after had a quality sushi night and some heart to heart stories with my girls. You know, sharing stories with the girls is one of a thing that is embedded in our (girls, female, woman, whatever you want to say) blood. And well i was looking for some fun at my room and what i'm trying to say is i'm doing another self potrait session at my room. So, here i go! 

 

Too much pics, huh?