Quote

"If you fail, 

fail again, 

fail better.."

Time Heals Me

I used to be very sceptical when someone told me that time will really heals everything. I think people who said that are just people who are tired of hearing my complains and my whining and all the things that they are so sick of hearing from me, so they choose to calm me down by saying that 'magical-wise-word', but it didn't work for me. 

 I find some part of myself is a drama when it comes to something that i don't like. You know when things don't go my way, i don't accept them right away. I question everything and i think about it all time until i finally getting to the point of feeling, okay, this is how life works. Things dont't always go my way and that's natural, we can't force thing to be happen, period.

Okay.

But it's a bit difficult here. Imagined if you worked hard to build a house from zero, from the very empty ground and you started putting your first cement yourself, and your second, your third, and you painted it, you planted flowers on the yard to make it looking pretty, you sweep the house every morning and you clean up every night before bed, you treated the house very nicely and unexpectedly, someone came and burn it. It burned. Everything i have inside the house burned to dust. I have nothing left right after.

So i was sad. I don't have 'house' to live in and i have nothing left by myself. That's the time when people came up to me telling me that time will heals. How can i even trust their words when they don't even know what i was feeling? I doubted them.

Days by days, months by months passed,
I started feeling better. I started to think clear and telling myself that everything is happen for a reason, and out of nowhere i started to believe that if something is taken from us, either we didn't take a good care of it or that thing itself just don't wanna be with us anymore. As simple as that. And i'm pretty sure that if we lost something, God will replace it with something better. And i believed that.

And that magical wise word, proven true.
I guess nobody wants to live miserably the whole time crying over the past and regret why things didn't go the way they wanted to. And ofcourse i don't want too. I have a brighter future awaits out there that i need to face. And, whatever left from the old 'house' became a memory that i don't need to keep in my new 'house'..

Goodnight.

So surprising that i never imagined my life could be like this, at the moment where i am sitting right now. The people i thought would be forever be with my journey, aren't there anymore. The others i've never imagined would be here with me, are surprisingly here. I think we just need to emphasize that people come into our life without any intention to stay forever, so never expect something permanent. Forever is just something people who are crazy in love will be saying. And remember, never take life for granted. What we have right now, enjoy, what we don't, let them go.

When We Talk About Compliment

"To get compliments for me is not something that we seek, it's something that we earn. "

Yesterday i was MC-ing for International Multifaith Youth Assembly 2013 that happened to be take place in Makassar, this year. So i felt lucky to be trusted hosting an International Event that attended by Vice Ministers, important people from Embassy and foreign participants that flew all the way their countries to gather here with one vision : creating peace throughout the world by realizing new paradigm of peace, One Family under God. 

As i was hosting the event with English, as well known as a universal languange, i know myself that i am far from perfection. I can speak, i can write, but if i asked to speak formally, gramatically perfect, i can say, that's not my daily thing. But you know, at some point we got to get ourselves out from our comfort zone in order to learn, right? 

So i asked the comitee director to teach me how, she taught me a lot and i felt confidence enough. 

Then i walked to the stage, see the crowded, see the beauty of the diversity among the participants, and i felt so, confident, somehow. 

The event ran perfectly, i felt relieved. 

You know that feeling when you know yourself just did a good job and people agreed with what you think so they tell you the same thing? 

That feeling. Is. Precious. 

I've been hosting a lot of event but somehow i find this one quite different and challenging at the same time. 
But at the end, Malaysian participant, Afghanistan, and some others came to me say that i should fly more and learn more abroad, because they told me that i got International quality already. 
I don't know if i'm a bit exaggerating this but i feel just great to be told something really, really mean to me like that. 

And by that i realize that in life we need to get ourselves some compliment in order to grow, in order to respect ourselves and to believe ourselves. Not to be arrogant about it, but be blessed instead. 

Then i randomly pick some compliment pieces that i got from my friends a year ago. I read them one by one, and i feel simply recharged. So i guess it's true, the strongest power comes within, we just need to always remember about it. 

Isn't it good to have a flashback or reminder about what we can do and how precious we are in earth actually?

Happy Reminder

-"Be so happy that when people look at you, they become happy too!"

-"Whatever you decide to do, make sure it makes you happy"

                  -"If you're happy and feeling good, then nothing else matters"

-"Happiness is a habit. Cultivate it"

                                                                                      -"Think happy, be happy"

-"Being happy never goes out of style"

                                                             -Life is too short to not be happy"

Society Circles, Who Are Those?

Few weeks ago i was attending a seminar about youth and political knowledge in Indonesia. One of the speaker at that time was Rene CC, a public speaker and an author of CC Book and UltimateU. If you ever heard about the book, Your Job is Not Your Career yes he is the author as well. Somehow i find this man really interesting! He sends an energetic and exciting vibes to us, the attendants. Since the goal of the seminar was to educate youth about political knowledge, he told us some interesting fact about Indonesia in the past. 

FYI the seminar held not so far from August 17, the Independence day of Indonesia. So he revelead some interesting fact about our Proclamation. Firstly he explained how the proclamation was finally decided to be proclaimed, the people behind, and how Soekarno at that time already believed in the power of youth already. If you ever remember that he once said "Berikan saya sepuluh pemuda, maka akan kurubah dunia" / "Give me ten youths then i will change the world". Agree so far? I do. As i said that he revealed interesting fact that, turns out the attendants of our proclamation was 80-90% youths in the average age of 17-25. So we can imagine ourselves were there, in our age right now. At least if we happen to imagine our soul were there, such a proud feeling. 

At the end of the slides, i got the chance to ask him question. Since i admire his energetic and positive mood all the way, i just simply ask him about how he keep that all the time, cause i know being positive and energetic will obviously influence other people around. And i asked him again, how to start making the change, at least from ourselves? I know i asked such an overrated question but i just wanna hear the answer from this guy. 

So he answered, to be positive and have a happy minded, is to be bless with what we have, never compare ourselves to others, and you know, be funny. When you're funny, everybody wants to around you because you send a positive vibes to others. The rest you just simply need to plant positivity in your heart and mind, Meilia. Simple. (noted).

The second question, he answered, If you wanna make a change, start from your circle. Do you think your circles are good enough? Supportive enough for you to keep you on going? Think about that. You know in life, we have so many society circle that we had. Family circle, bestfriend, boyfriend/girlfriend, organization, relatives, etc. Have you found which circle give you such a positive impact? You already know which one, and which is not really good for you either. And then, you have this one circle that you have been on so many years, consider this as your bestfriend circle. Your hangout buddies circle. You've been with those guys for good and bad, tears and joy, rich and poor and everything. But wait, what else? Instead of hanging out have some coffee and share stories, did you guys ever share about the same interest with education, learnings, motivations, goals instead of sharing what brands of bags are in right now? Think. If you haven't or you don't do that at all, perhaps, that circle is the one that might stops you from going further. 

Now start open up yourself to a new circle, like, organization, conference, voluntering, etc. That time when you start involving yourself in such activities those circles are having, you'll finally realized that you actually can do so much more in your life. And what so important, you can be useful for others and that's very precious. 

He said, when you feel like your idea of living of creating something in your mind doesn't match with the people in your circle anymore, leave the circle for a moment. Because you're way more than them already, you're thinking few steps ahead while they stuck there. You need to find yourself a space to learn and share laernings to other people. Meet new people, explore the living, gain knowledge because remember you only young once so don't spend it not doing anything. Make the best out of it. 

I agreed. I involve myself in volunteering activity already actually, organization and signing up for several conference, being busy filling essays and just stay in front of my computer pretty while seeking for opportunities that life offers, ignoring some coffee hours with my friends for a while indeed, and, i,  feel good :) 

Count Your Blessings

 

Today my day was simply amazing just by spending it alone at home. I lately have not so much thing to do i just enjoy my times at home. You know sometimes when you have much time and got nothing to do, you start wondering things, like you know, anything that could be? 

I surf the internet pretty much, seeing people's Instagram and found picture that opened up my eyes about how bless and happy our life actually can be. If we just think bout it, and count our blessings, i bet you'll realize that blessings can't be count, cause it comes every second, every breath, every wink, all the time. Happiness is simple. Think about it. I am happy now, and i think, why shouldn't i be happy?

 Here are the list of things that make me feel happy : 

1. I am breathing right now. 

2. I had a good time pampering myself at home today. 

3. Yesterday i got called and being told that i got to be recommended to be MC for some International Youth Assembly 

4. I ate Martabak a lot. 

5. I opened up my wallet and i see i got enough savings until the weekends 

6. I watched my favorite TV Show, Masterchef. 

7. I'm currently listening to John Mayer. 

8. I just took my medicine. 

9. I got stable internet connection, writing this, enjoying every single word i write. 

See? Isn't it simple? :)

The Choices Are : To Be Happy and, To Just Be Happy.

 (pict taken from Tumblr)

I think i have come to the realization that in life, we actually have so many things out there to explore if we want to get out from our comfort zone and, move. As simple as i was doing a karaoke yesterday for approximately 4 hours (if you can imagine how terrible my voice now is) i gotten my head opened just by enjoying every single song that i sang, reading every beautiful lyrics carefully, drinking my lemon tea like it was tasted sweet, you know, having to enjoy my life like i haven't done for so long. I am happy and realized that the world is, WIDE. 

Repeat : I am happy. 

And i know, life doesn't stop for anybody. 

So, heartbreaks, dissapointments, anger, betrays are a part of life that we are indeed gotta be in, in someways, but that is fine. Thought life is about ups and downs, we all know that. 

I learned. 

I learned that 'nothing last forever' is proven true.

It doesn't matter how long you've been with each other, how many years, how many quality times that you had, how many holidays that you spent together, how many fights, how many make ups, how many hugs, how many kisses, how many laughs, how many pictures captured the togetherness, how many miles we have been through, how many dollars that we spent to see each other in every spare time we had, how many flights (include how many missed flight and cancelled flight), how many midnight-morning calls, how many chats, how much happiness, tears, joy, blessings, how many 'hello' and 'goodbyes', how many gifts that we gave each others, how many journeys that we went together, how much love that once shared, 

Nothing is last forever anyways. 

And as long as you don't stuck on what's left behind and keep moving forward instead, you're gotta be fine. 
When you lose someone in your life, just remember that perhaps, there's not enough space in your heart to keep all the people stay there, so,

You lose some, you'll gain some. 

Don't stuck your mind on what hurts, from what hurts, you learn.
From what's saddening your mind, you learn to be strong. 
Even if you're sad, it won't last forever.

So why not choose to be happy instead? 

Have You (Really) Grown Up?

What is exactly the meaning of growing up?

Does it means to start differentiate which one is good or which one is bad, to be legal to drink alcohol, to be able to go out with friends until midnight and having to put make up on our faces already because we start being aware with our appearances cause that's when we start falling in love?

That's?

When i was a little girl i always wanted to be a grown up. Seeing my mom going to her office wearing her perfect suites, high heels on, make up and lipstick, that was my dream. I can't wait to be a grown up so my parents would let me go out with my friends just like my cousins did with their friends. I always wanted to be able to drive car by myself and putting cool musics on and just, act cool inside the car.  Always wondered when will i start wearing senior high school uniform and start dating a guy just like in a movie. Then again i started wondering when will i enter university and start acting like a real grown ups. And so on, and so on.

I used to think that to be a grown up was just to look good and to behave like a grown ups.

Never thought it would be this hard complex.

When we start being a real grown ups, life becomes full of complexity. Either the complexity are actually made by our own mind or indeed sometimes life and everything in it are so complex.

Growing up can be different meaning for each person since we live our lives differently.

When i said that when we grow up life becomes more complex, if i had to define what i meant about complexity is, that when everythings are mixed up as one, either differences, problems, even love sometimes.

As we grow up, we learn that sometimes things not go as the way that we wanted them to be, we learn that in life there are so many things, so many people, so many thoughts that sometimes no matter we like it or not, we just had to deal with. We learn to accept differences, we've taught about pressures, we learn everything from what we see, what we read, what we hear.


How do i measure my maturity level? By admit that i am now 22 years old and i've got myself considered as a grown up?

I think.. (and based on what i read)

•  We have grown up when we have our way of thinking and we can have our thoughts. We care what we care, we care what others think about us, but most importantly we care we what we think we are best. 

•  We have grown up when we can accept people's opinion wisely instead of getting angry for what we don't agree. We learn to appreciate people because that is how life works.

•   We have grown up when we start differentiate what's good and what's best for ourselves. Not in general, but more for ourselves. We learn to be responsible for every action that we take. 

•  We have grown up when we think, before we act. When we taste our mouth before we spit it out. 

•  We have grown up when we make mistakes and learn from it instead of making the same mistake happens for twice. 

•   We have grown up when we can accept that life is not only bout sweetness, but pain is a part of it too. You might cry and ask why pain coming to you but afterall you think and try to understand what caused the pain and learn from it instead. 

•  We  have grown up when we start acting wiser instead of being selfish. Remember that world is so wide and it's not only us living on it. 

•  We have grown up when we don't hold a grudge. Thinking that when someone hurt you, you gotta hurt them back is just like going around the same wheels over and over again. 

•  We have grown up when we start being able to control our emotions and not being controlled by our emotions. 

•   We have grown up when we can accept every facts in this world. No matter how hard it is. Like, we gotta learn to accept the fact that we all are going to die, someone we love might leave us, something we like might lost and so on. Life can be so bitter sometimes and we just have to deal with it. 

• We have grown up when we learn about love. When we learn that love is something so precious. When we are happy being in love. When we are okay loving someone and not having them love us back cause we know that real love is not demanding. When we are happy seeing the person that we love being happy. When we learn that love is something so sincere and so pure that comes within. When we realize that love is not hurting cause we are not expecting anything from love. Cause we just simply loving without expecting anything. When we don't get hurt cause nothing to get hurted about. Cause we learn about how wonderful love is. Love, is, love. 

•   We have grown up when we understand about life and values. Not about money, but, life values.

Those, some thoughts about how grown ups are actually perhaps live their lifes.


And if i had to be asked but how i think myself, i questioned myself about expectations. I questioned myself a lot about love. I questioned how i was so easy writing that love is not expecting anything in return when me myself expecting so much in return till i get hurt? I questioned my feeling.

I wish i could be a real grown up that i can accept every facts that happens in my world.
I wish i could grow my thoughts and my mind to be more enlighten.
I wish i could learn more about what i have wrote.
I wish i could start loving without expecting anything in return, cause that's how real love works.
I wish my life for the best.

People Come and Go, But We Don't Stop Moving

Well, as much as we hope it weren't so, but this is life. Someone that we have loved with all of our hearts one day can, quite literally, dissapear from our lives the next. It's just simply the matter of time. Not even a death, if i can say, circumstance. Who can possibly take a best friend, a lover or whoever, never to be seen again. So does things, they come and go. Today you might have a lot of money like you can buy a nice car by cash and tomorrow you don't even have money to eat. As simple as that. And as real as that.

Indeed sometimes fact can be scary.

But don't forget that if we lose something, there must be something bigger awaits for us in the future. 

Life keeps on turning, people come and go, but we keep on going.  

What Mother Theresa Said

“Life is an opportunity, benefit from it.
Life is beauty, admire it.
Life is a dream, realize it.
Life is a challenge, meet it.
Life is a duty, complete it.
Life is a game, play it.
Life is a promise, fulfill it.
Life is sorrow, overcome it.
Life is a song, sing it.
Life is a struggle, accept it.
Life is a tragedy, confront it.
Life is an adventure, dare it.
Life is luck, make it.
Life is too precious, do not destroy it.
Life is life, fight for it.”
― Mother Teresa

Remember This

Hey.
I feel kinda sad never updated anything here in so so long period of time. The internet connection at home was super sucks even it has been fixed but it screws still so, anyways, i'm in the middle of my thesis working right now but i just somehow gotten myself so excited about saying something here. Don't worry, dear thesis i'm gonna go back to you as soon as i done this. I'm on my chapter 4 already anyway so please God please give me super mega boom power to get it done as super soon as Your possible way to make it (and oh, my struggle ofcourse). 

Alright. 
Sooo lately i feel so lucky cause i am surrounded with great great inspiring people which they are my friends from exchange youth alumni. It's the second year i am blessed to be a part of them and sharing our learnings and learn and learn. I am not that kind of person who learn (much) by reading, or by watching news or well if i can say, from mass media then. Well, i read newspaper every morning i wake up, i watch news on TV every night before i sleep, the thing is i don't read book that much. Which is everybody knows that book really helps you to grow and to learn things that you want to learn since book are so complete though. But this part about saying books are helping to learn and to grow somehow i found it a bit different in me. I mean, here's the thing. As i told you before that i am currently surrounded by great people, by any means that sharing things and learn from each others experiences are for me, the best learning-effective-not boring-method ever. 

Isn't it?

I mean, here, to communicate is human's way to keep living and to socialize with their surroundings, right? You can read book, you can watch TV, but in the end you will still communicate anyways either way you talk or you communicate non verbally, doesn't matter. But as i said, learning by communicate is the most effective way to learn is because you do it naturally even sometimes you learn without you intend to do it. So it's just like the more you talk, the more you communicate, the more information you can get. And it's obvious. 

So what i want to emphasize here is that don't be afraid to talk, to ask, and to share things that you feel comfortable to share with.

Cause every place is a school and every person is a teacher. 

Have a good day!

It's Good Cause I Choose To Make It That Way ☺

 Today another start has come again..

I woke up this morning and i'm telling myself from the first that today is going to be good. 

Then i started myself smiling.

By that i know that the strongest power in this entire universe is come within,

from you yourself. 

So why not keep the good power burn, every single day? 

XO, Meilia

Things Aren't Quite Like What They Used To Be

♫ Cause this pain i feel it won't go away, and today i'm officially missing you..♫

People come, people go.

Life brings you down, life gets you up.

I rarely talk about love for serious this far cause i just somehow narrowly think that talks about love seems so serious and spoil, and it's all about blue feeling, sadness, heart broken and so on. 

But excuse me this time to talk about it, i wonder what is love actually?

I had a good relationship with a guy that i once made me feel like i could spend everyday with him without feeling bored at all. You know that kind of feeling you feel when you're around someone and you feel like you can be who you are and you can do anything without feeling afraid that he'll leaves you because you do silly things, you look ugly and stupid? I had that. I thought loving is a feeling of being loved unconditionally.

For my own thinking, commitment is not something that we need to make that official. Like, choosing a right date for our anniversary and you will ask will you be mine and i say yes, and we're officially being a couple, that day where we confess our feeling we mark that as our special date. No, i'm not that kind of person. For me, having someone who always be there for me 24 hours/day and having him to love me unconditionally, i love him back in return, for me that's enough. 

But maybe not everyone agree that way.

I had this thing going on nicely until realizing that relationship without commitment is like a dream without goals. It's like walking without direction, just keep going and if it's dead end, then we're dead. As hard as it sounded and so we're indeed dead.

If one person leaves, how could a relationship stays?

Things are never be as easy as a wink when one person left and just like a sudden everythings changing. Life's change, habits that we gotta left behind, everything. 

How come one simple problem could turn to a very dramatical separation? I asked.  

The anwer is yours, either it's mine yet i'm still questioning. Again, commitment that never came out from our mouth? Broken promises, or what? 

One person made me loves and i don't demand, i get hurted but i won't cry. Thought love is fair, it will be nicer in time. True love will find their way. Path. Destiny. God's way. I put my faith with them. 

Positivity, To Read

“When we lose one blessing, another is often most unexpectedly given in its place.”
― C.S. Lewis
  

“The unthankful heart discovers no mercies; but the thankful heart will find, in every hour, some heavenly blessings.”
― Henry Ward Beecher 

“Be thankful for what you have; you'll end up having more. If you concentrate on what you don't have, you will never, ever have enough”
― Oprah Winfrey

“Keep your thoughts positive because your thoughts become your words. Keep your words positive because your words become your behavior. Keep your behavior positive because your behavior becomes your habits. Keep your habits positive because your habits become your values. Keep your values positive because your values become your destiny.”
― Mahatma Ghandi

“Always turn a negative situation into a positive situation.”
― Michael Jordan 

“Live your truth. Express your love. Share your enthusiasm. Take action towards your dreams. Walk your talk. Dance and sing to your music. Embrace your blessings. Make today worth remembering.”
― Steve Maraboli

“It makes a big difference in your life when you stay positive.”
― Ellen DeGeneres

As What The Picture Says

I've just reaching back home after leaving a week to see old friends in town. A week of laughter and tears and happiness and sillyness around. Was a really great escape and a really nice feeling to see how 6 months of being separate and never see each other faces didn't change a thing. Thought friendship are strong indeed :) So we were there for a week all gathering with our secret stories to tell and a blanket to share. Feel so lucky have them as a bestfriend. Thinking bout going home was so far from my head yesterday, uh. But assessments are waiting, deadlines are right in front of my head and i really gotta go back home. So i was there, arrived airport already. Sitting all together, taking some polaroid pictures while waiting for my flight. I suppose to enter the terminal at 4.15 pm but i kinda (too) chill and let the other 15 minutes spent at that cafe. So i get in at 4.30, walked like i'm not in a rush, i even went to Beard Papa's to buy some. Then i slowly walked in to the gate, i saw so many people queing then i thought i was okay, i wasn't that late. But then i felt like there's something wrong in this line when i heard people around me were going to another city and surely that's not mine. So i left the line, i asked the officer and i gave her a look on my ticket, she told me.. The airplane has just take off like 10 minutes ago, she asked where i have been. If only she knows that i was there to buy Beard Papa's i'm sure she'll hit me in the head. Then she told me to go downstairs and go to the counter to ask for my reschedule ticket, stupidly i cried walking alone downstairs and asked the officer bout my flight and what should i do with that. Erh! That grumpy man asked me to pay two times more expensive than my previous ticket which already burned and flew. I called mom and told her but my stupidity and asked her to help me fix this stuff. I went out reckelessly, waiting for my mom to call and give me good news. I got flight at 9.40 pm, i relieved. I didn't say much, i just wanna reach my bed. I kept complaining and whining on my mind, putting a grumpy face look and blamimg myself how could i be this stupid. Afterall, i gotta take the lesson instead. But then just to prevent another stupidity happens for twice, i was in the waiting room already at 9 sharp. Waiting alone not doing anything just busy with my phone, waiting.. And the flight got an hour delayed. I was so mad but i'm so tired then i can't even say a thing. Was just sitting silently and waiting for miracle happens but it didn't, but i just keep being mad. Just plain mad. Shortly i arrived home, my driver already waiting at the airport like 2 hours and i didn't even feel bad to him just because i'm too tired and back again i'm mad without any particular reason. I was on the car sitting, the road was so quiet, it was just my car and some other car passes by, some motorcycle, all the stores are closed and just silent. I saw two little girls walking together holding hand and carrying a bag full of garbage on their shoulder. They looked happy, they were laughing like they have no pain, like their life are just great and they feel blessed with it. I shyly looked at myself holding my blackberry, sitting on a nice car, feel safe cause i have my home to live in.. Mine was totally opposite with them but how come i made my life so miserable just because i missed my flight and i got my flight delayed compared to those people who live in the street without roof to protect them, no money to eat, no sandals to walk, no clothes to wear, no clean water, no blackberries, no iphones, no iPads, no toys, no bathroom, no polaroid, no expensive bags, some of them even (perhaps) have no family, no, no, nothing. It makes me sad how myself could narrowly think that whining or complaining might help the feeling or mad or upset or so on. Simply just realize that my life is perfectly blessed by look down a little, appreciate every single thing, do things with compassion and throw away all the negative minds, everything is just right. Happiness come within, bless every single thing. Life is great, God is good. Thank you for slapping me by showing those little amazing girls, God. I should've be blessed every second.. 

As We Grow, We Grow Better

"I wish i could jump higher"

"I wish i had wings to fly"

Wish. Hope. Expectation. 

We all live with our personal expectations that we surely want those expectation happen/going as we expected them to be. I am now standing at that moment when i'm living an expectation that i was thinking this expectation will crazily change my life to the maximum level (if it really happens that way). But you know, wise once said,

"Expectation kills".

"Expect the unexpected".

Have you ever read those words? They were right. We should've told ourselves from the beginning that something might not go as we want them to be and as we human we know that life isn't perfect as a fairytale, so.. Expect the unexpected. I was expecting something that even yesterday i still expecting it to be happen til i realize that i perhaps putting too high expectation and i just too happy for that til again i don't realize that excitement of expecting things might turn into dissapointments. 

Dissapointment.

Pain.

It hurts finding out that things aren't go my way and collapsing those expectation.. I was hurted and cried til i go crazy i couldn't opened my eyes widely cause it was too puffy, i was in my bestfriend's shoulder, i listened to sad songs while driving and i felt like everything just suddenly ruined me. I was on that situation. I was messed. Can't think clearly cause what was on my mind just dissapointment and i keep sadding myself with remembering it over and over again. 

Then i woke up and think. When this going to end? I was silent. I let my dark and brightside fought over my head arguing about this thing. I walked to an empty corner at my house then i was like suddenly being waken up by my soul that she told me bout how precios life to spend angry, upset and unhappiness. So i decided to stop living in anger. 

I moved on.

Til i moved on i realize that when things are hurting, then it's not worth having. But then again i keep telling myself that being hurted, got dissapointed, feeling sad or whatsoever are a part of life and we can't really avoid problems come into our life cause it's actually us making that problem. So instead of get hurt too much and living in sorrow too long, i moved on with lessons i've learned that life comes with no guarantees, so do things and don't regret them.. And, 

As we grow, we grow better. 

-Meilia Gista

Quote of The Day

"Don't wait until everything is just right. It will never be perfect. There will always be challenges, obstacles and less than perfect conditions. So what, get started now. With each step you take, you will grow stronger and stronger, more and more skilled, more and more self confidenct and more and more successful." 

-Mark Victor Hansen

Short & Just So 'YES'

"As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You'll have your heart broken and you'll break other's hearts. You'll fight with your best friends or maybe even fall in love with them, and you'll cry because time is flying by. 

So take lots of pictures, laugh a lot, forgive freely, and love like you've never been hurt. Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. You just have to live life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone's hand, comfort a friend in need, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, and smile until your face hurts.

Don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back."

-Took from the novel, Antologi Rasa